back to the basics

school can get really really crazy. there's just a lot going on, especially for an AP student. and it's easy to lose sight of all that really matters when you're in the ratrace to be number 1 in the class. this week while i was sick... i just took a mental vacation back to the place where i loved to be.
i took time to play my music, which has always been so important to me...i took time to love it again, instead of trying to squeeze it into the busy schedule.
i took time to read just for fun. not that it was "fun" reading, but it was most interesting as it was true stories about the holocaust. a subject i am completely fascinated by.
i took time to listen to the music that i forgot and then proceeded to fall in love with again :)
i took time to SLEEP, something i have sorely lacked in the past few...months.
i took time to let loose and hang out without worrying about the amount of work i had to do.
...and somewhere in this i realized that although i value education higher than many things in life, it is not the end all be all. and my friends who place it as their number one priority have a hard time. sure they may be number 3 in their class, but they miss out on a lot by keeping their noses in the books most of the time. and ranking and gpa? is no sign of your intelligence. don't get me wrong, i completely value hardwork and intelligence...but if you can't live while working yourself to death by being number one, then it's not something i want to be.
i want to go to an amazing college, i want to have a successful career, but in the end, it's in God's hands. If I am supposed to be a Marine Biologist (not at all my calling, I can assure you), then God will make a way for me to be a Marine Biologist.
So I can stop stressing. It's not in my hands anyway. It's in God's. I'm coming back to living my life.